Hey everyone. Today I'm not ok. Apart from the pain, etc that has put me into my current state on the outside of my body 'just because', after a trip to a specialist this morning, it's now starting on the inside of my body, 'just because'.
I'm feeling really flat today after needing to see a cardiologist. I have a problem with the mitral valve of my heart which will require surgery to be fixed. And after asking the doctor the $64,000 question of how did I get this problem, his response was........you got it.
That's some really suckie news on top of the already suckie pain, and what your feeling is normal. Just remember we are here if you need us and we understand where your head is at, and it's ok too vent so if you feel the need hop on over to the vent post and tell the world what you think of the pain and the mitral valve.
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Thanks for asking, I am better than you today.
That is real cruddy news for you, no wonder you are feeling flat and more. If you feel like you need get any more off your chest , jump onto the vent topic and let it all out. You might be surprised at how you feel after you let it all out and you have plenty of people here who understand and support you . You are not alone
It isnt really a vent it is more that the wind has gone out of my sails.
We are held together with wishes, good thoughts, hopes, and maybe a bit of masking tape so it often doesnt take much to bring as down. Where we have to start all over again to get as to a place where we cope with our lives with pain.
I am only recently rebuilding myself after adding a new pain to the list so it wasnt so great yet anyway. My visit to the doc yesterday through me and has left me feeling vulnerable, sick and with the pain so much more out of control then i thought. This happened with a simple piece of paper, my travel form. When travelling to specialists i get government assistance since it is over 500km, I usually fly (which is rare most bus) but this time he has included that i need an escort ( it is very rare for this to be approved). Oh good am i that bad that i need someone to travel with me, thus the masking tape unravels and all the work to get on top of the pain falls a part.
So today i am not OK, i feel old, sick and that i am just PAIN!
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in your day,
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